So much has happened since my last post…
WOW! eight years have gone by. So much has changed since then. In my personal life & the world. My husband passed, I healed from old wounds, took over the care of my aging parents, dad passed, Ajna Designs has transformed into my life´s passion, mom got dementia, the world stopped from Covid, and we moved to Mexico. If someone had told me all that would happen I definitely would not believe them. But I am flexible, love adventure and change - thankfully! It has been the most challenging years of my life - to say the least. In hind sight would I have made different decisions - ABSOLUTELY!! But I don´t care. Not going down that road of regret. I did the best I could with the knowledge I had.
Dad and Paolo
Things I learned in the past eight years: the best family are the people you choose, I was introduced to the world of narcissistic abuse - and recovery, I am stronger than I ever imagined, how to face my biggest fears, I am supported - by friends and the spiritual world, I can trust myself more, the patriarchy is abusive and I found a passion for helping us all recognize where it lives and healing from it, I can be alone and not lonely, everything is solvable - but the solution might have a different face than I expected, there are mentally unstable people everywhere and we need to protect ourselves, self love is vital to a happy life, it is HARD to become more self aware but it is sooooo worth it, girlfriends are a life line, community is HUGELY important and I am great at building them, death is not the end of love, I can heal, I am tenacious & courageous, the journey is a lot easier if you think everything is “interesting” and use experiences as learning tools, people pleasing kills our vitality and relationships, and it is vitally important to put yourself first! You cannot even give from a full cup - you can only give from the overflow. Otherwise, you will become sick mentally, emotionally and physically - it is NOT sustainable. And most of all I found my life´s purpose - helping women find their voices, power and create lives they love.
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I have created a whole new life for myself. It has been painful, eye opening, joyful, exhausting, enlightening, heavy, uplifting, depressing… the whole world of emotions. I am proud of myself, I did it and it is still unfolding. I am scared and excited. I know hard times will fall, but I am not so terrified of them. I can do hard thing!! And still see the beauty of life. I can face really hard challenges and make decent decisions and more forward without freezing or collapsing. I am much better at cultivating my inner circle and I can say NO much easier ( still working on it). I am a good steward and respect my energy. I am capable of creating a beautiful life for myself. It takes determination, fortitude, resilience and support - which I have! This journey has been wild and I am excited for the next chapter!! Come join me!
Me in my beloved San Miguel de Allende, Mexico